This is an incredibly difficult month for me. October. This is the month when a fire, started by negligent individuals, caused the death of my then husband, and later my son.
Many years have passed and the pain is not as severe but it lingers. Today, while listening to the Karen Hunter Show on SiriusXM Urban View, Karen shared that Rae Carruth was released from prison today. Rae Carruth, the football player who conspired to kill his pregnant girlfriend and their unborn child. I remembered a little bit about the story and was happy that Karen Hunter shared a link tothis powerful article on forgiveness.
I read it and it shook me to my core. Forgiveness is not easy. I too am one of those people who had to learn to forgive knowing that God forgives over and over and over again. Please read the article in it’s entirety. Perhaps you too will learn that we forgive to release ourselves from a prison that could destroy our very existence.
Peace & Love,
Brightly colored displays announcing “Mother’s Day” are everywhere. Restaurants are promoting mouthwatering edible delights; last year (2014) 31% of adults bought flowers or plants as Mother’s Day gifts. 120 million cards are given and National Jeweler boasts Americans are expected to spend a total of $4.3 billion on jewelry for Mother’s Day — talk about cha-ching!
Well, this is my 22nd year as a mother missing her son, and my 11th year as a daughter missing her mother and it’s still difficult for me to physically enter a retail establishment, check email and read any magazine or newspaper with all the advertising focused on Mother’s Day. My way-back machine takes me to experiences long ago, wondering what we would be doing today to prepare for Mother’s Day. I get heart tugs and tears flow freely when I purchase celebratory greeting cards for my aunts, nieces, cousins and girlfriends – most with children living and breathing. Tears are flowing now as I write this. Listening to all the excited chatter and activities associated with Mother’s Day is still a hard and bitter pill to swallow. (more…)